04:25
Friday, 26 April 2013
im watching my girl
molla why i feel sho hurt?
sometimes im crying and sometimes im laughing -_-'
lmao im really pabo =='
aishhh when i see someone happy wif someone that they love
i will ask my self "when i can be happy like them?"
when i see he/she love someone but that someone love someone else
lmao its hurt me + i cant see namja crying bcoz of girl that they love :3
i will said to my self " how lucky that girl coz theres someone love her but shes really pabo coz juz let that namja go.... -sigh- im hoping someone will love me like that namja love that girl...lmao its impossible :3"
-sigh- idk what im thinking ryte now -_-'
ohya...seven? im trying to forget him
trying avoid him
trying not to look at him anymore
and yeah im succeed lmao :3
ermm i juz need time XD
theres someone im thinking ryte now :3
lmao stop thinking bout him
he doesnt like u =='
ohyeah.....i think someone report my juniel acc
wtf!! that someone really suck!!
thats my new acc!!
im trying to move on
tryinx to forget everything that ever happen
tryinx to forget everyone that ever be my friend but they hatinx me ryte now
lmao i cant forget what they said!!
wtf! gimme back my acc!!
or else im not gonna comeback to rp anymore!!
shit!! i hate u mark!
u block my acc bcoz of someone that report my acc ryte?
u r shit!!
only a few days left then im not gonna onl anymore
i have to focus for my final exam XD
lmao i should sleep now :3
paipai
p/s~ my connection really suck!! woiiiii micet!! why connection really suck??? gth!! oh yeah aq xdpt hostel :3 xfhm btol aq mcm mn dy org pilih ==' 100+ je yg dpt..bodo btol....ksian kita org kna cari rumah -_- hbis ink aq isi borang hostel..habis tenaga aq g mtk cop..shit r!
03:58
Sunday, 21 April 2013
dear my family here:
anyway.. let me ask u all something..
never leave that group.. arraseo..??
if u really loves ur family never leave then..
nae.. i wanna leave this acc before and wanna give it to jinmin and lazy to open this acc.. but am i not lying that i will be on another acc and saw what ever happen on fam...
don't leave even jaehwa said something like that, don't leave when jiji eonnie said go away, don't leave if u really loves them..
when only me who on9 on that group in the middle of nite, am i thinking... why they choose me to be an admin? why eonnie believes on me even she ever mad at me? why jaehwa talk to me even he hate me before? why am i back to that group again after hiatus? and back as jinnie before am i is someone else? why i need to be there?
the answer is only God gave it~
God makes me found u all as my family and give me to learn on everything in life specially one thing that we call LOVE~
God gave me to meet u all without confusing, so why must i'am? God gave me to meet u all without regret, so why must i'am? problem make us grow and know each other more... also make us loving more.. misunderstanding and bad words only a few thing to make us more knowing as well.. love is not only has a good way, but also the bad way, not only gave us happiness in life but also the saddest to learn on it...
actually...when am i trying to leave, there always jae oppa that make me remind to not make him disappointed, he gave me time to knowing u all each other so should i just leave and break his trust?
there is jiji eonnie who make me as her saeng and trust me to be an admin and care of that group so why i must?
well, i know u all think of this also..
CL, never run from ur problem.. nae, just cry when u sad.. cry a lot and louder as much as u want, hurts give u so much... but never run and leave from there.... i know all of us will grow up and leave someday, but not this time cl.. the time is not comes yet.. jiji eonnie ask u to go away? she said that cause she wanna her time to be alone.. it ever happen to me also.. already two or maybe even three time she ask me go away before...long ago.. but, she not asking u to deact.. it's not a good choice to settle any problem, well take ur time and think of it..
when u already finish ur cried, take a breath and smile as much as u can.. after a rain there must be a beauty rainbow on it
i will try to help caleb oppa on this.. even he hates me later or what.. i don't care.. lol all of us must fight till the end isn't it?? love u all much
sincere,-
jinnie
~ wtf! i'm crying again!! i can't hold this tears!!! why?why? why i have to cry bcoz of them?? they don't even care about me...they hate me!! yeah i know!! i always run from my probs!!always!! and yeah idk why i always cry when something happen to fam ...such a baby -_- yahhh i'm not like this before!! why i'm being such a weak girl?? i wnna be heartless girl!! arghhh i hate this tears!!! i hate this feeling!!! i hate everything!!!
jaeky...sorry coz i make u mad...sorry for everything!!! n thanks for everything... lulu thanks for everything...and sorry coz i'm always shouting at u...i always fight with u..sorry if i ever make u hurt......jinnie....sorry....sorry for everything..yahhhh -_- don't text me anymore!! it's expensive coz we r from different country -_- every 5 minutes??u r crazy jinnie ==' yahh i'm crying + laughing read ur text -_-' thanks for everything....sorry if i ever hurt u...oh yeah........ermm like jiji eonnie n caleb said... sorry can't fix anything..so idk if i said sorry means nothing to all of u... :')
jiji eonnie.....please forgive me..i know sorry can't fix anything...but still wnna say sorry...i love u like my older sis..i don't have older sis -sigh- i feel guilty eonnie...you ask me to go away ryte?? i wnna leave...wnna deac all my acc so no one from fam cant find me...wnna deac my jihyun acc but -speechless- i juz cant >< its hurt me to see u hate me...its hurt me to see my sis hate me..its hurt to see my sis hurt...its really hurt me...God i love her so much..please take care of her..please make her happy...amen...
caleb...i know u cant forgive me...i know u hate me...i know u mad at me...i know u love jiji eonnie n everyone there..i know that..i love them too....im hurt when all of u hurt....but yeah u dont give a fuck ryte? u dont even care bout us...bout me..jinnie...jaeky...u ever said to jinnie..that she doesnt know whats the meaning of friendship...i think ur the one who dont know whats the meaning of friendship.. we playing around..we talk to each other..we try to make fam alive...still we not ur friend??ah arasseo...i understand now...we r stranger in ur life ryte??thanks coz u teach me bout friendship..thanks..ohyeah...please forgive me even i know sorry means notinx to u...i said i hate u ryte?? i hate u bcoz u make my bestie crying....erm actually i dont hate u i juz dont like the way u treat my bestie..shes trying to make fam alive..she always try her best...i know sometimes shes crying n hurt but still she keep harder to make fam alive..n make everyone feel like family...please dont mad at her..
jaehwa...please dont leave!! poor jinmin...his lonely...he said he miss victor...please dont leave rp for him?? please...im begging u...please dont leave!! and yahhh miss to call u cutie mutie and u will make this face -_-
jinmin...yahhh kiddo -_- u r not alone...jinnie always there..shes always there even shes not posting anything..jaeky also...n yeah i always there too...i juz love to stalking all of u..long time didnt see u onl huh? poor u...hwaiting for ur study!!
kimin.......kiddo i love u!! lmao -_- take care of eonnie for me okay!! n take care of ur self too :) dont eat fast food everyday -_- its not good for ur health...eat some healthy food...arasseo? hwaiting for ur study!! study hard to learn korean language okay!! hwaiting!!
j oppa...yahhh oppa!! miss u so much!! im still waiting for u to make me as ur sis....get well soon..!! be strong okay!! sorry coz i make ur sis hurt!! sorry for everything.....oppa...always take care and smile
jake...victor...haewon...taefung(i know ur name lmao)...yunho...hyuna eonnie..chunji...kai(mir's cousin)<~yahhh pabo miss u so much!! palli come back!!......n all fam member...please forgive me....sorry for everything that i ever did....sorry :/
mir..mesti kau marahkan aku kan?? sebab aku dah buat orang2 yang kau sayang hurt...aku xsengaja...xbermaksud pun nak buat macam tu....aku tahu aku salah..aku tahu aku bukan kawan yang baik tuk kau n yang lain2..aku minta maaf sangat2..oh yeah..apa yang pernah jadi dulu tu kau maafkan aku x?? please maafkan aku....sorry for everything...take care of jibam for me okay :) love him so much!!
lmao im typing this like im going to sleep forever :') aishh juz forget it..always take care n smile okay...love all of u so much!!!
if one day i'm not here anymore..i mean if i ermm not in this world anymore...i wnt all of u to read this....i wnt all of u to know how much i love all of u..n yeah please take care of ur self and keep smiling :)
-JIYOUNG/CL/JIHYUN/JESSICA/ZATI/JANE-
22:30
Saturday, 20 April 2013
you never know that i keep crying coz i feel guilty
you never know that i didn't want everything happen like this
you never know ryte?
you think i'm not sad thinking bout them??
you think your the one one who love jiji??
i love her too...because of that day she break up
i'm sorry...i dont know by tagging her name will make them break up
if i know i'm not gonna tag her name
i'm not gonna tell that girl which one is jiji acc
i really forgot that jiji only want us to know which acc she use
she doesn't want anyone else to know bout her acc
because of that day..because of my mistake...
arghhh really feel guilty
i'm writing this while i'm crying -_-
i know i look ugly when i'm crying but yah i juz can't hold his tears
it's really hurt :/
already deac my cl n sica acc...after this i will deac my jihyun acc
i know caleb hate me...lemme take the responsible..ask me whatever u want..after this i will leave...so that no one will get hurt anymore...this time i will really leave!!
yahhhh pabo tears -_- please stop!!
eonnie....yunho oppa....caleb...j oppa...sorry for evrything
sorry coz i make all of u hurt
sorry coz i'm not a good saeng n a good friend
sorry for everything -bow-
12:09
Friday, 19 April 2013
Mir got rob few days ago..aishhh poor him coz his not in Malaysia...i'm really worried n call jaeky to make sure if the news that i got are true or not...she said yeah n i ask for mir's phone number....luckily his fine...yahhh!! miss jibam so much!! wanna see jibam pic??
his old pic
yahhhh yesterday i has Analytical Chemistry test... its easy lah!! haha :) i'm stalking fam n what i saw hurt me!! jiji eonnie n her bf break up...because of what i did before?? Caleb mad at me n kimin T__________T then i call jinnie to n asked her what happen actually?? lmao i'm crying + laughing..ok that's crazy ==' how dare jinnie said i'm ugly when crying -_-'
i hate you Caleb!!! u mad at jinnie n make her crying ==' n bcoz of u i'm crying too T______T n jinjja feel guilty...
okbai!! i have 2 test.. organic chemistry (suck) n mandarin
wish me luck
00:59
Saturday, 13 April 2013
hey
i don't know what i'm thinking ryte now -sigh-
i juz feel hurt...mad..sad...wnna give up? ermm
everything mixed up n i'm become crazy eh no heartless eh? T___T
arghhhh i hate this feeling >_<
sometimes i'm heartless and sometimes i can't do something bad to someone that ever care for me
abang long....he ever care for me...ermm maybe ryte now still care
i don't know lah -_-'
a few days ago me and nina ignore him but yah i feel like wanna crying coz did something like that to him :/
but yah i'm hurt for what he did!!
i'm hurt coz i thought he know me well but what he said show like he never know me!!
never know my attitude!! never know how i always do something stupid!! never know how i'm always try to defend everyone that i love and know!!! he don't know anything!!!
that's what make me feel disappointed -sigh-
even he did that to me but still i can't do something that will hurt him :/
if i do it i will feel guilty + hurt =='
okwhateva!! stop talking bout him -sigh-
yahhh!! i don't know why...but i'm tired with everything
tired with my life...tired with my study...tired with everyone here..tired with fake friend/enemy...tired with monster....tired with my self -sigh-
i juz wnna give up......i hate chemistry!! i hate monster!!! i hate fake people!! i hate everything!!!
mom!! dad!! arghhh i'm disappointed coz i know i'm disappoint both of u!!!
arghhh i hate my self!!!
i can't do it anymore!!! i can't!!! T_________________T
i will try my best :) i will!!!!
wnna cry but i can't!!! there's no tears!!! i can't let everything go >_<
whateva!! God help me :-( i can't through this alone.... i have to hide what i feel...i have to through it alone..no one understand me :/ God really i can't through this alone..please help me...please help me to make my parents proud...please help me to make everyone around me happy....please help me to forget seven...please help me to kill all negative thinking bout everyone that i hate or love...please help me!!
arghhh nina went back to her home and left me alone -_-' and ryte now i will sleep with sofi :D
miss nina so damn much!!! yaaaa nina!! can't wait for this sunday coz she will comeback :)
can't wait to gossiping with her + wnna share something that make me mad + feel like wnna kill someone ==' okwhateva!! love u nina!! always take care n smile babe :)
tomorrow sofi n me hangout to mc :) hoho can't wait to spend time with her + there's no electric start from 9am till 5 pm :)
nisa!!! syira!!! adam!!! miss three of u so damn much!!! NISA!! please don't skip ur meals!!! hwaiting for ur study n assignment babe!!! SYIRA!! hoho congrats coz u already finish ur final exam :) ADAM!! i know u rarely onl coz u have to study!! sho hwaiting dik!! i love all of u damn much!!! always take care n smile babe :)
miss my family so damn much T_______________T wait for me!!! i will comeback this may :) but 1 day is like 1 years -_-'
01:37
Monday, 8 April 2013
Assalamualaikum & hye :)
jiwa kacau sejak kebelakangan ney -sigh-
miss my family + both of my bestie sho much!!!
n yeah banyak benda yang terjadi sepanjang aku tak update entry -_-
prob yang menyakitkan hati....
manusia2 yang menyakitkan hati....
ermm ntahlah
sepanjang aku hidup kat Langkawi tak de pulak jumpa manusia2 macam ni -_-
kat sini macam2 jenis manusia yang perangai ntah pape je =='
xfaham betul aku
manusia ke monster?? okno!
penipu! semua kau cita kat dia orang tu tipu!
aku tau kebenaran tapi aku diam!!
sebab? aku malas nak cari gaduh ngan monster macam kau..
kau sengaja kan nak raih simpati?? whateva lah monster =='
ohyeah ==' bout someone yang aku terpaksa berbaik even i hate that someone =='
hoho day by day aku hate dia -_-
damn! kenapa lah aku kena berbaik ngan dia?? why?? why??
menyampah doe!! xpe3.... lagi sebulan lebih lagi
pas ni kau bebas NIJ :)
sikit lagi sayang.....sabar kay
abang long?? hoho aku terasa ngan dia =='
banyak sangat aku terasa ngan dia
tapi kali ni sangat2 terasa sampaikan aku malas nak cakap ngan dia -_-'
fine!! aku memang kasar! aku kan jahat!!
tak pe..lepas ni xperlu dah kot nak jaga aku!!
pandai2 lah aku jaga diri!!
aku dah jadi heartless -_-"
mampos lah korang nak cakap pe2 pun sal aku
malas dah nak tunjuk aku ni baik
malas dah nak buat baik ngan orang yang xhargai aku
malas dah nak care sal orang lain
malas dah nak percaya ngan budak2 micet neyh
alang2 korang nak aku jadi kejam sho dengan suka hatinya aku jadi kejam : )
btw xsabar pula aku nak blah dari micet ney
cepat lah dapat spa or whateva je lah asal aku xbercampur ngan monster2 kat micet ney =='
ohyeah.....aku takut 7 suka ermmmm =='
kalau 7 suka ermmm memang tak lah aku nak baik ngan dia dah sebab memang aku benci dia
if i want i can get rid of u from my life girl :)
