hey
i don't know what i'm thinking ryte now -sigh-
i juz feel hurt...mad..sad...wnna give up? ermm
everything mixed up n i'm become crazy eh no heartless eh? T___T
arghhhh i hate this feeling >_<
sometimes i'm heartless and sometimes i can't do something bad to someone that ever care for me
abang long....he ever care for me...ermm maybe ryte now still care
i don't know lah -_-'
a few days ago me and nina ignore him but yah i feel like wanna crying coz did something like that to him :/
but yah i'm hurt for what he did!!
i'm hurt coz i thought he know me well but what he said show like he never know me!!
never know my attitude!! never know how i always do something stupid!! never know how i'm always try to defend everyone that i love and know!!! he don't know anything!!!
that's what make me feel disappointed -sigh-
even he did that to me but still i can't do something that will hurt him :/
if i do it i will feel guilty + hurt =='
okwhateva!! stop talking bout him -sigh-
yahhh!! i don't know why...but i'm tired with everything
tired with my life...tired with my study...tired with everyone here..tired with fake friend/enemy...tired with monster....tired with my self -sigh-
i juz wnna give up......i hate chemistry!! i hate monster!!! i hate fake people!! i hate everything!!!
mom!! dad!! arghhh i'm disappointed coz i know i'm disappoint both of u!!!
arghhh i hate my self!!!
i can't do it anymore!!! i can't!!! T_________________T
i will try my best :) i will!!!!
wnna cry but i can't!!! there's no tears!!! i can't let everything go >_<
whateva!! God help me :-( i can't through this alone.... i have to hide what i feel...i have to through it alone..no one understand me :/ God really i can't through this alone..please help me...please help me to make my parents proud...please help me to make everyone around me happy....please help me to forget seven...please help me to kill all negative thinking bout everyone that i hate or love...please help me!!
arghhh nina went back to her home and left me alone -_-' and ryte now i will sleep with sofi :D
miss nina so damn much!!! yaaaa nina!! can't wait for this sunday coz she will comeback :)
can't wait to gossiping with her + wnna share something that make me mad + feel like wnna kill someone ==' okwhateva!! love u nina!! always take care n smile babe :)
tomorrow sofi n me hangout to mc :) hoho can't wait to spend time with her + there's no electric start from 9am till 5 pm :)
nisa!!! syira!!! adam!!! miss three of u so damn much!!! NISA!! please don't skip ur meals!!! hwaiting for ur study n assignment babe!!! SYIRA!! hoho congrats coz u already finish ur final exam :) ADAM!! i know u rarely onl coz u have to study!! sho hwaiting dik!! i love all of u damn much!!! always take care n smile babe :)
miss my family so damn much T_______________T wait for me!!! i will comeback this may :) but 1 day is like 1 years -_-'